Posts from — December 2009

I’m happy.
Christmas with Jacob’s family was great. It made me feel a little less homesick. Everyone was really nice and I got some amazing gifts like two tickets for the upcoming Phoenix show in January. I wasn’t even expecting it since it was sold out a few weeks before Christmas. My mom sent me a big box of gifts plus some old pictures of me and my family. It made me smile a lot. I will upload some here soon.

… and most days I tend to see the worst in things, or to admit that life’s seeming coincidences don’t add up to anything more than quirky twists of chance. That there is no great pattern, and our daily affairs are mere distractions until death finally allows us to relax – well, not that far. But sometimes I’m struck as if by white lightning, and everything is beautiful. Everything is so monumentally and independently significant, each thing and person so radiant that I can’t even take it all. It passes by so quickly, but in those fleeting moments life is amazing. I live for these moments.